Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Life right now...

...is not going the way we had planned. 

Doesn't God like to throw in surprises and trials that seem unbearable? 

When the dark stretches out and we can't see the end- we don't know where the end is- is He still the same, the kind, living, holy God?

He is.
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Monday (the 26th) when my Mom was packing up at my grandparent's house, she fell coming out of their front door and broke her foot. We drove home (3 hours) and my Dad took her to the ER when we got home around 10 that night. She has a cast and crutches. and ironically, she fell at my grandparent's house in the same place and broke the same bone 7 years ago. So we are expecting the same 6-8 weeks of not walking. 
 Which means that our house is running on my dad and I. Dad is off work until the 3rd, which is giving us some time to adjust. Adjusting has been... interesting. It's hard for Mom not being able to carry anyone or anything and hard for us not to call "Hey Mom! I think the twins locked themselves in the bathroom."
So prayers for her healing and patience are appreciated. Also, prayers for my family. and I suppose the real reason I'm writing this is to ask for prayers for me. It was crazy to me how soon Satan started attacking me after I heard the news. "You know that's three meals a day and laundry for 8 people along with keeping the house clean and taking care of the twins and there's this thing called school. Oh and remember Wonka starts in 3 weeks." It took a walk in the snow to brush away the tears that insisted on coming and to say "Back away from me Satan. You shall not have this ground." The short of it is, I'm overwhelmed. But my God is good. I am feeling the peace of Christ as I strive for patience and joy. I'm not naturally a very patient person. :)

So prayer, if you can spare the time, would be wonderful.
 I'm going to try to post here sometimes, but if you don't hear from me for awhile, you'll know why. I'll be cooking supper, reading to 3 year olds and trying to grab bits and pieces of geometry during my spare time.

Thanks for understanding.

{quotes from an email I sent to my friends prayer warriors last night.}

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Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Breath of Heaven

I had never heard this song until recently, when my piano teacher brought it for me to learn.

I. love. it. (just so we're clear on that.)

The music is gorgeous, so soft and delicate and the lyrics are strong and amazing. I'm posting the video and words below.





 Breath of Heaven
Amy Grant
I have traveled many moonless nights
Cold and weary with a babe inside
And I wonder what I've done
Holy Father, You have come
And chosen me now to carry Your Son

I am waiting in a silent prayer
I am frightened by the load I bear
In a world as cold as stone
Must I walk this path alone?
Be with me now, be with me now

Breath of Heaven, hold me together
Be forever near me, breath of Heaven
Breath of Heaven, lighten my darkness
Pour over me Your holiness for You are holy
Breath of Heaven

Do you wonder as you watch my face
If a wiser one should have had my place?
But I offer all I am
For the mercy of Your plan
Help me be strong, help me be, help me


Breath of Heaven, hold me together
Be forever near me, breath of Heaven
Breath of Heaven, lighten my darkness
Pour over me Your holiness for You are holy

Breath of Heaven, hold me together
Be forever near me, breath of Heaven
Breath of Heaven, lighten my darkness
Pour over me Your holiness for You are holy
Breath of Heaven, breath of Heaven
Breath of Heaven