Unraveled

I'm a giant sweater
But unlike normal sweaters,
I wear down with just a little use.
Normal living- conversations, class, the public eye-
Exhausts me.
It unravels me.
If I don't stop
I turn into a tangled pile of yarn
Not much good for anything.
So I need to get away
Really NEED to.
I need to curl up in a corner and breathe.
I need to read in utter silence.
I need to let my brain slow down.
I need to take my mess to the Master Crafter
And let Him knit me back together. 
 
I'd love to hang out with you.
I'd love to get coffee and go shopping,
Watch movies and party for hours on end.
But that's not how I was made.
I can't do those things hour after hour
Day after day.
I'm a sweater, not a raincoat.
Things don't just slide off.
Attempting to cover my holes
Only pulls out more threads.
When school and work and stress,
Social life and just doing empties me,
Give me time alone with my Maker
Let Him fix my twisted knots
And I'll come back.
I will.
Then I'd love to see you,
To hug you,
To talk.
 
And this sweater will be much more capable of keeping you warm. 

Thankful for You

(This poem was written a few months ago during a scary experience one of my mom's best friends had. Their little one-year-old is like my little brother and we prayed so much during these dark days. Jesus healed him and he is now a jolly two-year-old!)

It was a cold winter’s night
We were happy and free
When the phone rang and all seemed okay
Then Dad said “We’re praying,
And we’re here if you need us.”
Then I tried to keep the tears at bay.

To...
Laugh at your rosy cheeks,
Spot the twinkle in your eye,
Watch you play around,
I’d try not to cry.
To hold you in my arms,
and call you mine,
To think that you
are completely fine.
What I wouldn’t give...

Right now.

At this moment in time
My mind’s flyin’
In a thousand different ways.
Toward memories and what-ifs
And “How many more days?”

So I kneel down to pray
And God takes the pain away
My heartbeat’s finally slowin’ down
A few deep breaths
And my thoughts go back
To the hospital across town.

{Entering in Abby's contest}